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skooter
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 Posted - 07/21/2010 : 6:55:32 PM
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Wow, I can't believe how long it's been since I've been here!! 7 months ago, and I'm still alive  thanks to Jana, and Karen! And John for helping me get in touch with Jana!
Thought I'd update my "progress"  Well if I'm still alive, then there must be some kind of progress, right?
I am now down to .295mg of clonazapam from starting at 1.5mg. Sounds good on paper, but then I think that is still equivalent to 5.8mg of V. Which makes me think still along way to go  But I suppose, it's a heck of alot better than where I'd be if I wasn't doing this method! So I am very thankful for everything. Well except my nasty lingering physical s/x's that is! Which I could whine about, but I've given up on whining (hence don't post anymore) as it just does not help anyone. They are still pretty horrendous though, and I'm just pushing forward to get off of this garbage.
I feel I have been going thru this torture for so long, life is just passing me by. And I'm sure most can relate. I still can't stand myself, in that I feel so fat, and have aged what looks like about 15 yrs. Which gives me alot of work to do once I do make it to the other side. And that unfortunately will not be once I am completely off of the benzo as I waited to long to reinstate, and never went back on a high enough dosage due to being on the equivalent of 135mg of V. Plus I did not find Jana in time to figure out how to get off of this properly, and therefore I went up and down so many times I fear I did some heavy duty damage to myself.Plus being the impatient person I am, I have often doubled my decrease once I felt that the miniscule dose I am supposed to take out, after doing it almost a yr. there was no change in my s/x's whether I took out the double dose, or the single extraction. Therefore I should be off of the toxins by Oct. if not a tad sooner.
Anyways, that's where I'm at right now. And just thought I'd stop in to say hello to everyone, and welcome to the newbies. And to say if you start this properly before you get into trouble either doing the cut and suffer method (all other sites online) or a c/t (please don't do that), then you truly will have a wonderful taper that will not interfere with your life at all. Oh how I wish I'd of looked into all of this BS before doing what I did over 2 yrs. ago now!
God Bless everyone.
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/21/2010 : 9:31:22 PM
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( Cheryl's back, Cheryl's back!) Oh the wonders of peer pressure,......girl it IS GOOD to see you back here again, leave again and I'll start nasty rumors about ya! 
Love,love love ya,
Karen <----------------(doing the cabbage patch dance!) ( Cheryl's back, Cheryl's back) |
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skooter
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Posted - 07/21/2010 : 10:04:39 PM
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Awwwwwwwwwww you're a SILLY gerllll. Ha, I guess I can't spell it like I say it lol.
I'm so sorry you're so sick woman. Wish I could do somethin for ya!! (ha, hope ya know what I mean ;) )
Love ya tooo, smoooches lol,
doing the mumbo jumbo (or whatever its called, snort snort)
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John
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Posted - 07/22/2010 : 11:21:12 PM
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Hi skooter
Nice to see your name on this board again and to know you are still on this side of the veil.
I am continuing to plug along in my tedious slow monotonous way. I am now down from 6 mgs of klonopin to just slightly over 2.5,or equivalent for the purpose of withdrawal, to 50 mgs Valium. So I would say you are doing short time with your 5.8 Valium equivalent amount of K. While I still have a fairly long stretch of my sentence yet to serve. In a manner of speaking. I know you have done hard time, while my time has been quite easy. Timing, as I am sure you know, can make all the difference in the world. Like you and many others I will always be grateful to Jana for all her help and guidance.
Welcome back skooter, hope you will stick around a while.
Your ol pal
John
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 01:08:03 AM
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Gurl,
You better get to postin' or I will start those rumors!!!
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skooter
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 01:40:20 AM
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Oyvvayyyy,
I KNEW I shouldn't of posted. Now I was feeling guilty for not checking in today, hence I'm BAAAAAACK.
Hi John,
good to hear from you also. I'm glad to hear it's still going good for you. Highly jealous, but it's good to hear as I truly wouldn't want anyone to experience this hell. (well except for those evil ILLuminati jerks  ) At least when you're not having ANY s/x's John, it is WELL worth it to take the time to get off of this garbage for sure! So just keep at it, and you'll be free AND clear once you're done, yes? (Lucky **** )
And yes Karen,
I am here, although almost didn't make it. As I told you in email, I missed my dose lastnight, and didn't realize until I went to mix it up this morning. Arghhh, can I say sick of it all AGAIN! See this is why I didn't want to post anymore, because I was done with complaining (cuz nobody listens to me anyways, and what good does it do  ) But thanks to you know what (yes I'm being bad again) I am here, and knowing you'd spread rumors about me, I HAD no choice lol.
Well, I am going to try not to be bad tomorrow (but doubt that will happen because I just can't stand it nomore and break down everyday now) and if I am able to stick it out, I will not be able to get off my ass! So don't be spreading nothing about me, cuz I DIDN'T DO IT! lol and that's my story and I'm stickin to it
Love and prayers to ya's! Hope you feel better Karen! |
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 5:32:01 PM
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Your supposed to come here and whine! That is what we are for! Lord knows you can't whine at home, or in my home, even make a comment or hint that you are having another bad day.........
yeah, I know I forced you back here, but admit it, it is good to see all of us and you love us! I missed the heck out of you posting even though we stay in touch and always know what is going on with the other one, I WANTED you here! haha
anyhoo.........so glad your back,
I love you all!
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shawn
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 8:43:32 PM
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Hi skooter! I am new here, but getting to know Karen and John. Nice to meet you as well. I am a "victim" of the cut and suffer method from one of the other sites..I reinstated to my original dose a few days back, and so far so good..Still have some issues. I am sorry to hear you are still having some bad s/x's Keep the faith that once you are off, you WILL HEAL in time. I know it sucks, waiting so long, and the horrendous road you have been down..but I truly believe it will be worth it in the end, no longer being chained to our dr.'s rx pad.
I hope to get to know you along with the others here. I love this place and am sooo glad God directed me here.
Take care
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skooter
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 10:18:10 PM
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Hey Shawn, I wrote you on your thread. Thanks for visiting, good to meet you too.
Well third day I've made it. I wasn't good today either, and managed to wash a couple windows. Now paying for it and didn't even get them finished. I am totally disgusted with me and life now. Sigh. I am having a family bb'q next w/e for 3 b/d's coming up, joy, not. Hence the house needs massive cleaning, never mind the cooking. But those coming will just have to suck it up and bring there own food lol. Or should say a dish at least. They should be bringing ME food!
And with that, I will go. Guess I should of did what I said I was going to do so I wouldn't be in such a foul mood! |
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/23/2010 : 10:28:48 PM
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No, it is great you posted! I have a real juicy one to say about you if you don't....haha
I am sorry you had a bad day, but cleaning windows, wow, I am seriously impressed!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gonna do a bbq, you go girl, I don't think I could. You know, I have thought the same thing, everyone knows I can't do any cooking and my husband is gone most everynight, why doesn't anyone care if I eat?????
oh well...........
Hey, so glad you are here
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/25/2010 : 01:10:25 AM
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Hey Skoots, miss ya here today, but I know it's been a rough one..........but still, gotta tell ya it;'s quieter without you.
You know what I miss here, your daily links to cool stuff.......I lived for that stuff!
love ya,
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skooter
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Posted - 07/27/2010 : 12:13:01 AM
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Well sorry I missed a couple days. Things are going pretty yucky. Don't be impressed about the windows either Karen, I still have parts sitting outside!! On another note tho, my son offered to have the bb'q at his house yeahhhhh. A huge relief for me for sure (and hubby as he'd be doing most the cleaning).
Anyways, Saturday night was worse than I've had in a long time. Snuck up on me and bam. Tears and all, the pain was so intense. Seems I get more empathy when I have those spells, perhaps I should let them out more often.
And being in that woman thing, hate to say it, menopause, is really starting to take it's toll on me and the family. My double whammy of s/x's seem to be getting worse again. Hope it doesn't last as I can barely live with myself, let along having people around having to put up with me. It's like someone just looks at me, and I blast them. What a ride, one I continue to pray will end sooner than later.
So that's it for this sufferer, getting some nasty thoughts so best go.
Hope all are doing better and may God Bless us all.
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/27/2010 : 12:28:32 AM
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Cheryl,
So sorry it is so bad, but I am so glad your son is hosting the get together!
Wonder why you got so sick all of the sudden, kind of like what happened to me...............where does it come from?
I was plugging along nicely and BAM it got me............
You are right, God bless us all.
Love, Karen
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skooter
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Posted - 07/27/2010 : 12:37:05 AM
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| Thanks Karen, perhaps it's that woman thing. Ya know? The joys of being woman, and nobody want's to hear me roar that's for sure ;o) |
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kattklaws
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Posted - 07/27/2010 : 8:50:18 PM
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If you're gonna roar, let me get the lion tamer! haha
Hey, I understand that woman thing............
How is your day today? I have felt ick! Do you the crippling anxiety?????
Love ya,Karen |
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skooter
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Posted - 07/29/2010 : 02:46:28 AM
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Hey Karen,
NO I don't get the anxiety, Thank the Lord! I didn't know you were having it? Do you get it all the time? I'm sorry you're doing icky, mind you this was now 2 days ago, so I hope you're doing better??
I'ma ok. yesterday the mood thing was dragging me down, today it was alot better. Hate that mood crap the most I think. Or when it's happening. I think I'm just so exhausted and fed up is all, and just want this finished!
Love ya too,
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